Where do begin? That is the real question... I honestly do not know. Do i start with how i use to want to fuck people up out here... Los Angeles that is when i first arrived or do i skip ahead. Where did the aggression come from? I am usually pretty chill, very chill. But there was something about these so called "Hollywood niggas" that rubbed me the wrong way... that term is far beyond hollywood, but i know what when i see one. I remember when i first arrived something in me said do not do jokes at some of these places but i did it anyway. Cause i loved that shit... i spoke of doing DMT with two dogs in the room, getting pulled over with leaving Arizona, and so on... only to hear other mother fuckers get on stage and do it at other venues... and i was like WOW... one nigga even did the shit in front of my face and i just sat there like cool... "i know who you are." One dude even sent me a message saying "yo. i fucked up and stepped on your material." and i was like cool... did it work? and we left it at that, the fact that he reached out to say something was like alright. Not everyone is a vampire. But i can not point the finger then not look at myself. I would be a fucking liar if i said i haven't been influenced by others before... oh shit... I remember i had this one joke about fecal transplants and when i got bak to La i heard this dude doing it... damn near word for word, i am not calling him anything, for he is damn funny but the way I felt when i got back to town was well... made me want to fuck shit up... where to go from here.
I remember going on a trip up north with a comedian to see the eclipse, and we started talking comedy, and i was saying "sometimes, a complete joke could come out of now where from just the drive." and her reaction was like "no, that is impossible." or that is how i took it from her following statements. I can say being alone on the road is, traveling from place to place... alone with your thoughts and the open road in opens a new way of thinking and to assume that all people are like you and may have your limitations like you do well... odd. I tend to think people are more capable of what they are doing and when i hear them say they can't i then usually think "oh... you truly don't believe in yourself" or in short fuck off.
I stopped watching comedy specials for the most part i do care what they are doing but I do not. I have my own shit to worry about. I stopped writing comedy unless it is in a painting, now i just get up and talk, if it is funny cool, if not, well then it was not for you. All I know is I am not about to be made uncomfortable by a bunch of comedians that probably couldn't walk a day in some of the shoes of the people I have had conversations with in this town.
One time i was at this place downtown Los Angeles, The Lexington... and a few comics were talking about the greats in hip-hop and all i could think is "why do you niggas care so much? why not worry about yourself instead worrying about who is who and who is doing what" so i got up and left... i believe that is when i semi checked out of the los angeles comedy scene. i remember the first or second time i went up at The Hollywood Improv i said "you know, Hollywood isn't the world, los angeles is not the world" but to some people it is... and to you Do your thing i am not here to knock you and i wish you all the success you desire...
Oh i can say at one point after being here for a bit i started to question myself such as am i becoming one of these niggas? am i going to act like i am friends with someone just to get a head... nah... so i removed myself from those circles and getting back to me. Roaming the city with the cameras, creating, randomly popping up to share a story or two at a mic or show and planning the world tour. Well i'll see you when i see you....
enjoy some out of context photographs...
